In honor of Andy

After reading a friends blog today, I realized how insignificant my own problems are, in the grand scheme of things. Today, this post wont be about my pathetic problems, today, this post will be dedicated to my best friend, Andy. He has been so strong, and noble throughout his life's endeavors, every problem he has come to face he faced it with truth and valor. A message to all those people who think they have the worst life ever, you don't have it near as bad as you could, there's always someone worse off. Think about that. Andy is the most truthful friend I've ever had, and he is so kind! He's really made a difference in me and the world already, just by being who he is, I admire his courage and strength. He's kept going, and never let his problems get in the way of being who he is. I know that he's going through a rough time, and I just want him to know, I'm here and ready to listen, and I always will be, no matter what. I just want him to know that he will always have someone to turn to, because I will never judge him. Ever. I value our friendship more then anything, and I want him to know that, because he's been there for me. Now I'm going to be there for him. And if he's reading this, I want him to know, that he doesn't have to be an Inner Dragon, he just needs to be Andy, because he's better then any Dragon. Thanks Andy. God bless you, your brother and your whole family!   

Friends & Family.

Alot of who I am has been formed by simply just thinking  about who I want to be. As a little girl, I never dreamed of being a princess, or a superstar, I didn't imagine myself as anything at all except for being, well, me. As a teen, I've been really different from the girls I know, in a number of ways, I guess I've always been a bit messed up...But the funny thing is, that's the way I like it. Another huge part of who I am, is my friends and family. I've learned so many valuable lessons from my Grandma, aunt and uncle, they helped me pick myself up and dust myself off even when I've lost a lot, to always keep my head held high. But my friends, they help me to let go of what is lost, and not to swim against God's current, I mean, what can you do? It's God, hahaha. A couple of  friends in particular are Hannah, Emily, Nancy and Andrew. Every time I see my friend Hannah, she is all ways ready to listen to whatever I have to say, she's a beautiful and very Christian young lady, who I admire and love very much. Emily is a very.... different kind of friend, she is very kind but very weird, just like me, her and Nancy are practically twins, born in the same month and think almost the same things, never a moment when they aren't together, they've never had a fight, and I don't think they ever will. Andrew is my best friend in the entire WORLD! He'll listen to me babble on about something that doesn't even matter and never judges me, he's always been there for me and is an absolute angel! I don't know what I'd do without him to talk to on the days of uncurable boredom. Nancy is.......Well, there are no words to describe Nancy, she's very kind and fun to talk to, and always has some kind of joke up her sleave, she's sort of the awesome mad scientist of my little circle of friends. Those are my best best friends, all of who I owe more to then I could repay in a million years, yes even the family, especially the family. And then there's my mom. My mom is...More then a friend..... so much more, she's an amazing person who will tell me what ever I want to know, she always makes time for me, and always understands me. There are no words to describe how much I love her, and how wonderful she is to me, she is everything I could ever want, she trusts me and loves me and never tells me that I'm not worth it, even when I know that I'm not. Each one of these people are a blessing to know, and help me keep faith and always love me. God bless and good night!   

Trials and Chalenges

Throughout my life there have been many, many challenges. My life, as a rule has been and always will be very hard, and sometimes it's simply because I'm a homeschooled child. Don't get me wrong, homeschooling is completely awesome and I adore it, but the world can be overwhelmingly prejudice. when I was very very young, my father underwent a series of illnesses, such as stage 3 cancer, diabetes, and a staff infection in his left hip that caused the doctors to do two surgeries one antibiotic hip implant for a certain amount of time, (I don't quite remember how long..) and a second permanent hip. While my dad was in the hospital with his second hip, my sister and I were being shipped to one friends house to another, with no real steady place to stay for about 2 weeks. And finally my grandparents decided to come down to our house and take care of us. At that moment my grandmother became my mother, and grandpa was my dad. They took care of us for about a month, so as you can imagine, we bonded very closely. Soon enough, my dad was home and healing. Although I was young, I remember many details about that ordeal. The scars, both flesh and emotional, were healing, and very slowly and my life became somewhat normal. And then  my Grandpa died of pneumonia That experience shattered my life forever. Losing someone that was closer then a Grandpa, someone who meant so much more.Well, those are the major, character shaping events of my past up to the present time. That's the introduction to my life; I just thought that tidbit would make this blog easier to understand. Welcome to my world. My life as a homeschooled teenager!